Songs In Blue

I was really nervous about Matt coming up for a whole month.

Sure, we had ended every email with ‘Miss you’ since pretty much day one, and knew we had crazy feelings for each other.
But there’s a time for logic.
Logically, it did not make sense for us to jump into a long distance relationship based off of a few days together. As well as, umm hello? Living AN OCEAN APART!
So, up until this point, our relationship didn’t have much of a definition. It was basically 2 friends, who emailed often, liked each other A LOT, but still lived separate lives.

I even emailed my concern to Matt long before the San Diego trip,

“what if you get here and have all these expectations and I disappoint you and you end up having a crappy time, it’s awkward and we never talk again…
Then there’s the flip side.
We get to see each other, for a whole month! yay! And we get really close, have such a good time and continue this surreal relationship we’ve got going on.
but you have to leave, and we’re still living in different countries..
I don’t know about you, but I’m still missing those 3 days we had together freaking 7 months ago”

Matt, ever the cool and collected one,

“I know what you mean though. It’s kinda crazy the way I feel about you considering the amount of time we actually spent together and I am so counting down the days already till I can see you. I wouldn’t worry about that month together being crappy because I will honestly be happy if all we did is play board games for a month or whatever.
I will be happy just to spend time with you and get to know you in person rather than through a computer. As a bonus I get to do it in a wicked country that I’ve always wanted to see so I’m sure I’m gonna have an amazing time. It’ll just be leaving that will be hard probably. As for beyond that month, we’ll just have to wait and see won’t we, it’s too hard to know what will happen so may as well just not worry about it yet eh.”

(Seriously, aren’t we losers? heh.)

Anyway, it ended up being an incredible month…more than I think either one of us expected.

But of course, with that came ‘What do we do next’?

Since Matt went home, we email multiple times daily, and talk on the phone for hours every weekend…it is no longer logical to have things go back to the way they were.

Luckily for us, Matt lives in a country I fell in love with, one I was planning on going back to as soon as I could. So after the work-visa saga that has been the last 4 months, I am finally allowed into the country and have the passport/visa/plane ticket to prove it.

I will be leaving in 2 months 21 days*, 11½ weeks*, 82 days*,

AUGUST 27th, 2008*

*but I’m not excited or anything WHEE!!!